The beginning....

The beginning.... I am just an average girl who is trying to become comfortable in her own skin while trying to keep her eyes fixed on the Lord. I ask God daily to root my heart so deep in Him that I would not wither under the toils of this world, but most of the time I fail. Why is it so hard to put your pride aside, admit your sin, and fully depend on God. Why do I continue to have major freak outs about life decisions that God has already taken care of? It is always funny to me to look back on things that were such a big deal and see how God worked ( People are right hindsight is always 20/20) Rob and I recently placed a contract on a house. I know that it is God's will for us to have this house. First I had researched the house and knew it was out of our price range, but looked anyway. We placed a ridiculous offer that we thought would be laughed at yet they took it. God wanted us to have this house to glorify Him with it. So back to today's story. I was supposed to have a W2 form for our mortgage broker. Well me being unorganized since getting married and the move and all couldn't find it. So of course I had to call my employer ( who which is way behind the times and the way they do things ceased to exist for most companies with the invention of the computer) and request a W2 form. The lady then informed me that nothing could be done until the next week and there were no if, and ,or buts about it ( she did this in an ungly manor FYI). So of course I had a major meltdown because when you buy a house it is very stressful and on top of that all your money seems to be sucked from all accounts you own and that lady was the straw that broke the camels back.This was something I HAD TO TURN IN FOR A MORTGAGE DIDN'T SHE UNDERSTAND. So after a whole day of wallowing in not being able to get this form; it was in my mailbox the next day. Oh how God is funny! If I knew that it was God's will for us to have that house why did a worry about a stupid form coming in. He already had it taken care of!! God is always faithful even when we are not!